this is interesting!! take a look >.<

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart
racing and is your voice caught within your chest??
It isn't , it's LIKE.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of
her/him?
It isn't , it's LUST.


Are you proud, and eager to show
her/him off??
It isn't , it's LUCK.

Do you want her because you know
she's/he's there??
It isn't , it's LONELINESS.

Are you with her/him because it's what
everyone wants??
It isn't , its LOYALTY.

Are you with her because she/he kissed
you, orheld your hand?
It isn't , it's LOW CONFIDENCE.

Do you stay for her/him confessions of
love,because you don't want to hurt her/him?
It isn't , it's PITY.

Do you belong to her/him because the
sight of her/him makes your heart skip a beat??
It isn't , it's INFATUATION.

Do you pardon her faults because you
care about her/him?
It isn't , it's FRIENDSHIP.

Do you tell her/him every day she is the
only one you think of?
It isn't , it's a LIE.

Are you willing to give up all of your
favorite things for her sake?
It isn't , it's CHARITY.

Does your heart ache and break when
she's sad?
Then it's .

Do you cry for her/his pain, even when
she's/he's strong?
Then it's .

Do her/his eyes see your true heart, and
touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's .

Do you stay because a blinding,
incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close
and holds you to her/him?
Then it's .

Do you accept her/his faults because it's a
part of who she/he is?
Then it's .

Are you attracted to others, but stay with
her/him faithfully without regret??
Then it's .

Would you give her/him your heart, your
life, your death??
Then it's .


Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so,
why do we love?
Why is it all we search for in life?
This pain, this agony?
Why is it all we long for?
This torture, this powerful death of self?
Why?

The answer is so simple cause
it's.... It is
such an addictive thing that even people
who are not having it wish to experience it and
share it with others as well.

hurts our feeling, but it's also the
reason our soul heal..

But one day when u truly fall in ..
remember to let the someone know.. to suffer a
moment of embarrassment is better than letting your
happiness fly away forever...

so fast 2005 is coming to the end..


major decision made in this yr


+choosing nursing as my future career


+moving my house to yew tee


+being together with WiLL



new yr resolutions

+getting better result


+hohoho world peace


+everybody i noe to be save and healthy

happy new year!!

slept veri late this few day and my darkring were so obvious!! look so ugly!! i felt kinda gulity cox i didnt spend any of my holiday studying!! not even doing my e-learning.. so lazy!!



have a wonderful dinner wif WiLL jus now.. went back to my old house there to eat our fav chicken wing!! heexheex both of us were so hungry and we eat a total of 5 chicken wing.. yummy!!


today is my elder sis birthday!! both my sis and her bf went to eat California pizza wifout me.. so sad case!! this is wat i sacrifice for today dinner wif WiLL..


den when i reached home my sis was baking brownie.. but by the time i reached home it was already in the oven so i miss the baking process again.. T_T

baking in process

waiting in process

cooling in process

eating in process

ytd was a memorable nitex for both of us.. spending our first xmas together and wif Din family!! took bus 14 down town and hab our dinner.. after our delicious dinner Din son wanted to buy the snow spray and Din bought the first 6bottles!! so all of us started spraying at the stranger but i didnt really spray cause i dun dare =.=" yup wif all the kids ard, 6bottles were not enough and there go the next 6 and the next and the mext 6 and a total of 24bottles!!



i was veri happy
WiLL was also veri happy
Din whole family was happy too
all of us really enjoys our xmas eve!!

hmmm i am slacking for the past few day!! i think i should spent sumtime studying.. heexheex but but one of my friends Eve lend mi VCD so i think i should finish watching before starting my study plan.. toking abt my new friend EVE.. hmmmm i should say she is real funny and cute!! hohoho..



my stomach is not feeling well the whole day.. since morning i hab the urge to vomit!! it became worse when i finish eating saka sushi wif my friends.. and kept habing cramp!! =.="



i saw loads of stuff from ebase which i really like.. but i am veri veri veri super duper poor!! dun hab any money to buy any single stuff!! T_T

this whole week i am exhusted!!


WiLL was back on sun morning and i went to the airport to find him.. he will only reached singapore at 1.40am so i kinda waited for veri long.. so sad case -.-" i can feel tat he was veri happy cox it was obviously shown by his facial expression..


den slept for 3hrs and gotta woke up cox need to prepare to move house.. heexheex i find it so interesting!! my brother friends also came down to help up and the lorry was damn big and so retro.. first time in my life i saw this type of lorry!! atfer erverything was done i went down to work.. so can u imagine how tired i am :'(


sumthing interesting happened in btw the nite at my new house.. we decide to save electrial bill so we didnt switch on the air-con and swtich on the fan instead.. while i was sleeping half way i heard a veri loud strange noise and i shouted so loudly till i wake both my sis up.. in the end we realise tat it was some part of the fan tat came out.. the lousy fan!! make me so embarrassed..


here come my two weeks break.. hohoho!!

this week is actually my resting week but WiLL went to hongkong so i hab to help him to look after his shop.. i am exhusted!! -.-" finally he'll be back tml and i really miss him badly..



hmmm will be moving my house this sunday n i'll be sleeping in a new place .. tat's kinda scary!! i will miss my old house cox i lived here for 17yrs..

when out with WiLL on sunday to town and again he bought a top for mi!! i think i must get a big gift for him during X'mas.. haix but i am veri poor!! hopefully i can sell more thing to earn more money.. that nitex was horrible!! i hab a fight with WiLL.. as usual tat was due to my big mouth.. i said sumthing which really make him so angry!! but after all, thing was solved peacfully -.-"



den here come today.. today was my malay ICA presentation!! i was so neavous at the begining cox my pronunciation of all the malay words was terrible and kept asking grace for help.. i kept pronunciating 'baik' as 'boik' -.-"

heexheex but luckily our presentation turn out well.. the lecturer was quite satisfied with our presentation.. the grp before us was damn hillarious!! so fuuny and cute..


tiring day!!

phew!! finally my all test is over and holiday cuming.. from next week onward i can go home early cox most of our lesson are e-leacture.. hohoho!!


haix i am super duper poor now.. gotta paid my school fees soon and my father only gab mi 1000k but my fees is 1070bucks.. which mean i gotta top up the 70bucks myself!! tat mena i will need to use the 100bucks which i got for my attachment to pay it.. and i need to buy my concession soon!! so sad case!! i am broke -.-"


i need money pls drop sum money from the sky!!

first time in my life in this sem we can go home at 2pm!! really a day to celebrate


since i can go home early i went down to my new house.. today sum worker will be here to finish up my room wardrobe and the kitchen.. everything was so beautifully done but my kitchen top mable was not fix yet so is kinda cover with a layer of wood.. hopefully will fix it up tml


here are sum of the pic..

+tat's my room sofa+

+the unfinish kitchen+




+before+

+after+

+living room+




+heexheex tat's my yamaha player n mi+

heeheex went down to find WilL with his birthday cake!! hmmm sum of his friend from the other shop and mi sang him a birthday song and there end the celebration.. i could really feel he is veri happy and touch..


okok here go the picture of my new house










only left wif this two pic cox the rest my sis delete away le.. so sad case!!

when out with my sis to shop for our kitchen applliance at CK Tang.. we bought quite a loads of stuff and i finally got my Lancome eyeliner at 30bucks.. so happy!! but my sister paid for mi first coz i am broke!!


test on wed!! -.-"

haix weekend is over!!



when down to suntec wif WiLl to exchange the t-shirt i hab bought for him cox that time the sale girl got a total wrong design for mi.. i am so blur by not checking!! in the end he exchanged for a cheaper t-shirt and i top up sum money to buy a t-shirt for myself.. den went down town to eat mos burger which i wanted to eat for months!! he bought mi the coke cola bears.. so sweetx of him!!



today sum of the furniture hab delivered to my new house!! my sis took sum picture and my living is damn beautiful.. will post the pic on the other day cox my digit camera low batt..

ok

okok i'm here to make complain!!

my attachment posting is out.. 6weeks of attachment and 2weeks of eaxm in between!! that is crazy rite!! i am moving house soon and tat mean i cant wake up late anymore.. if i'm on morning shift, i gotta wake up at 5am!! -.-" so poor thing

this weekend gonna be bored cause 3tests coming soon so gotte study lo!! haix the motivation of studying is getting lower and lower!! although i noe i'll be out wif WILl tml, i still didnt really study today.. i was jus slacking and sleeping the whole day!! tat's so bad!!

boring week!!


nothing big hab happen except Wii birthday cuming and my clinical test n bioscience test..!! i am afraid tat i hab no time to prepare for WiLl present so this week i am busying getting his present and doing up the card i wanted to gad him.. but i still dun hab enuff money!! -.-" i guess i still hab to save up more money first..


the card i hab made

this are sum of the pic we took on ariel birthday which i am lazy to post on tat day..

a table of good food at ThaiExpress.. yummy!!

the yummy tomato!!

mi and duan

jess and ariel

can see de pattern??

i am short

we are short

haha!! wat a shorty

we!!

she drop her shoe lace

wat a smelly shoe she hab

the hinden mi

wow that's disguesting

my mum is habing fever!! i can comfirm she gonna hab chicken pox.. i dunno this was a good or bad news cox so far i am not infected yet!! so sad case!! -.-"


Mr WilL didnt blame mi for the big mistake i hab done.. felt kinda guilty!!


this week will be the 5th week of sch and my prctical and theory test is cuming!! i am damn scare!!

ytd was really a tire day!! phsically and mentally exhusted..


early in the moring i went down to meet WiLl.. heexheex he finally bring mi down to eat the kallang chicken rice which he always tell mi.. yummy that was really damn delicious!! he odered half a chicken tat was damn loads nehx.. he kinda eat 3/4 of the chicken!! tat was scary!!


den when dowm to meet my deary friends at town to catch a movie life like heaven hmmm kinda funny but is redicious.. den went down PS to eat ThaiExpress!! that was yummy too.. delicious!! when we abt going home Jess friend cum and we took damn loads of cute and funny pic but i am lazy to post it..


ok this are all the happy stuff that happened ytd..


but the are quite a loads of bad stuff happened too!! WilL ask mi to buy 4D for him but i a person who noe nothing abt it.. so there was sum miscommunication and quarrelling between us as i dun really noe how to buy 4D.. so i brought wrongly for him den wat i never thought of really happened!! if i have bought it correctly he'll hab strike the 4D and is at 2nd prize!! i feel so guity and sad!! why i am alway so stupid and blur!! i really felt so sorry for him.. :'(

as usual i am bloogging in my school com lab now!! life was bored and nothing special hab happened.. :(


hmmm weekend cuming and tml i am going out wif my sweetie friends to celebrate ariel birthday!! actually we planned to go escape team park but ariel couldnt make cox she hab to work tml till noon so we decided to go for movie lo.. yup town again!! -.-"


meeting Will tml morning.. yeah!!

yup i didnt blog for the past two week.. the reason behind it was becox i damn busy and habing no chance to use the computer!! first is my sis habing chicken pox and follow by my brother.. so during the past three week i either go down qw to find WiLl or jus wasting my time outside!! even if i reach home i jus got nothing to do!! cant watch SCV n cant online!! the only i did when i reach home is bath and sleep.. so poor thing!! hopefully it will stop at my brother so i can go home early.. or i will hab to go home late every day again!!


but i really treasure the past two weeks cox tis was the period that bring mi and WIll closer!! spending more time together and hanging out watching movie during the weekend, bringing mi out for supper.. i guess is the sweetest i got from from him so far!!


anyway i am still at the drangous zone cox my brother chicken pox hab not fully recover yet.. pray hard for mi tat i will not get it..